So....no longer pregnant.....NOT GONNA BE pregnant....that can only mean one thing....ITS TIME TO SHOP!!
I head out to one of my favorite stores (very affordable) only to feel an array of emotions I have not felt before while shopping---(with the exception of being in a pregnant state of course) highly overwhelmed, complete confusion, aware of my total ignorance of style/trends. My inability to put an outfit together actually had me leaving the store in tears. (I am not lying...I am that pathetic)
You need to look at it from my perspective.....so here we go! (Brace yourself)
Last time I really took any pride in presenting myself as a stylish put together kind of gal was back before I began my elephant like gestation period. So I had just turned 28 and was still experiencing some night life (truth be told..with 3 little ones I still do experience night life---just of a much different kind). My wardrobe was an expression of my age, lifestyle and of course---my waistline! Fast forward about 4 years and 3 kids later and you not only get a first hand look at gray hairs, baggy eyes, wrinkles and the sadness to accompany the realization that you have left that stage of your life behind but you also get.....well.....a breakdown in the middle of the young adult section after realizing that you no longer fit the age requirements.
As I was attempting to piece together outfits that would flatter me and my new worn out tired mom look in my post-pregnancy state of life---my brain was still being drawn to the body hugging and less then conservative style I wore during my pre-pregnancy state. I began to literally feel as though I didn't know what to do with myself. I attempted to pick items off racks hoping it would all just come to me....but sadly it didn't. A thought I never expected to cross MY mind...its hard to look at yourself (wearing baby puke and all) and justify spending money on a nice wardrobe when you have no place to even wear it. The EXTREMELY sad part about it all was that I was not even trying to spend our own money....I had a gift card that I had received for my birthday that I was planning to use! I couldn't even justify using free money!!!
Although a troubling revelation....I guess there is only one solution.... I MUST continue to go shopping....if not for myself then for the good of all those that have eyes and must gaze upon me. Its for my husband, myself, my friends.....ITS FOR THE CHILDREN!!! (you buying it?...works for me!) I WILL have a comeback!! (shhhhh....can you hear that? I believe that is the sound of my husband mumbling in the other room....something about scissors and credit cards?)
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